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It's been awhile. :-P [Oct. 12th, 2004|04:28 pm]
homicidaledward
[mood |frustratedfrustrated]
[music |Arch Enemy: We will rise]

Sorry it's been awhile since I've last wrote, alot of different stuffs been happening... I asked Katy out, that was cool so were actully dating now. Umm, then no much happend until this Friday, a bunch of shit happend at work and I damn near got into a fight with another cook named Bill which was totally unjust and now I'm done with Coney and all it's shit so I quit. I'm looking for a job hardcore right now, I have one more paycheck at Coneys to get me by but I need a job like in the next few days! Looks like 7-11 has an opening and if I go in tomorrow and talk to there manager I have a good chance of gettin' in on midnights. Katys been goin' with me and gettin' apps, shes needs a job just as badly as I do... The big difference is my parants won't support me if I'm jobless, thats why at the moment they don't know. Arg, this is a low and high point for me right now, got a good woman and I got out of Coneys, but I didn't get another job before leaving coneys and thats making me very broke... lol Whats weird is this is the first time alone I've had in like 2 weeks! I never thought I'd say this but it feels good to have a little time to myself. Besides all that I've been playin' airsoft with Katy and any friends that'll come along. After job hunting yesterday we went a picked up a few friends and went to White Hill, it was so awesome. We all got shot alot! Katy shot me in the neck with her high powered pistol, that bitch hurts! Mark got shot right on the tip of his nose, looks like he's got a zit! lol It was all in good fun. I havn't talked to Darcy in like 2-3 weeks, saw her mother friday night before that shit at Coneys and payed her some of the money I owe her, god, she talked my ears off for like 20 minutes! lol It was good taklin' to her though. Well, I'm off I got stuff to do and such. I'll try and write more...

Edward
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Kitty fur and razer sex! [Oct. 2nd, 2004|08:06 pm]
homicidaledward
What a fucked up night last night, had the worst night at work ever! Then went to Katys house were she was having a party, her 22 year old brother fucked a 17 your old and doesn't remember it because he was drunk then I endded up having razer sex last night, wow, I've never let anyone cut me before or have I ever cut anyone, that was the best thing ever to happen to me! I'm still in pain! lol What was even better is it was razer sex no more then a few feet from her family whom was on the other side of the door, Darcy would have never let me do that, not even think about it! What an outstanding night! Well, I'm off hopefully to have more razer sex! Oh yeah and I'm workin' every single day next week! Fuck yeah! Movin' on up!!! :-)

Edward Calagari
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What a fucked up world we live in! :-) [Sep. 29th, 2004|09:32 pm]
homicidaledward
[mood |Unbeleavably Happy!]
[music |The beautiful thoughts running through my head...]

I just wrote a whole journal entry but I kept it private... It's about Katy (found out thats how she likes it spelled) mostly and what I and others think of her, what I think about other peoples thought about her... Ya know what, I don't give a shit. I found myself all worried about what other people were thinking and not worring about myself. Thats what I've been finding everything coming back too, in the long run it's all about yourself and what makes you happy, and no matter what anyone says, latly it's her whos been making me happy... I'm scared that I'm going to become emotionaly attached to her, but there isn't anything I can do about that, it'll happen or it won't. All that I really care about is that I'm actully happy!!! :-D I hung out with her the past 5 days, stayed the night at her house 3 nights ago, then we stayed at my house... Well, we endded up sleeping together but ya know what, I didn't mind! I had fun, as did she! lol Whats cool as it isn't weird, were still friends and it's still cool hangin' out. Then last night I stayed at her place, left this morning and after a few hours at home I couldn't help but call her and we talked for 3 and a half hours! I never thought of her as that interesting of a person but she is, shes kind, funny and most of all there for me. Shes basicly been a good friend to me, and a good friend with benefits! lol It's so strange how fast someone can change there mind on subjects. So very strange... lol Well, I'm off to work.

Edward Calagari
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(no subject) [Sep. 25th, 2004|09:29 pm]
homicidaledward
[mood |pissed offpissed off]
[music |The dryer in the back ground...]

Grr!!! I just bought a P90 full automatic electric airsoft gun and the fucking thing wont work! AHH! I've been dying to get one of these forever, I get one and the fucking thing wont work. Plus theres no game tonight, which sucks... Hopefully I'll be able to return it for another tomorrow or maybe see if it just needs a new battery. The charger shows it as charging, but anyway, hopefully we'll have a game on Tuesday and I can kick the shit out of those guys with the pump action shot guns! haha! Thoughs things hurt. Now the only problem with the P90 is the ammo rattles around, alot! And the motor is loud... So playing night games with this thing may take some getting used to, but I've got a feeling it's full auto ablity will easly make up for it. :-D
Hmm, well Marks been out of power for the past few days, looks like his nimrod sister hasn't actully paid the electric bill in about 6 months, somewhere around $800! She just pocketed the money, so now Mark has a power cable running from next door to run different things at different times. I talked to him for a short while on AIM but he couldn't stay on long. So I'm gonna go pick him up in a minute and see if he wanted to go to Royel Oak cuz I don't have to work tonight! Woo hoo!
Last night after work was somewhat weird, I guess it's odd enough to write down... I sat and takled to Megan for a good while about how much we hate what Darcy has turned into... They used to be great friends and now there very different, Megans a goth model and Darcys a spolied italian princess, Darcy seems to look down on Megan (atleast thats how she put it) and I see what she means, I went to Darcys house awhile back in black fat pants and just basic all black stuff, she said I looked hot but it made her feel like I was younger, I told her at this very moment I'm doing better with everything in my life then before, what does the way I dress have anything to do with the way I act? She says it just makes her thing of her highschool days when she dressed like that, I guess thats how she connects the two. Now I normaly just dress in shorts, or large pants, with a heavy metal shirt of some sort. Megan is always in something crazy, fishnets (legs or arms lol) tail boots, almost always all black, that sort of thing. So I do wonder how much Darcy looks down on Megan? Hmm, anyways the real point of all this is I havn't talked to Vanessa in awhile and I heard she was going up to Coneys last night so I was rather happy about it. When she showed up I was like the "vanessa!!!" she just gave a quiet "hi..." and just walked right by me, when I asked whats wrong she said nothing, then Megan asked whats wrong she again said nothing... I went to go make some food and went to sit with them, when I did Meg and Vanessa just talked among themselves and I wasn't in it at all... Then as I was leaving I paid there bill, I'm not sure if I was being nice or just trying to show her in some way that no matter how badly she treats me I'm still there, because I know shes more broke then I. I still feel badly for what happend between us and I feel it's my fault shes the way she is now, this whole depressed no one loves me and I love no one mode. She clams to have been like this a long time but I know it's bullshit, shes been my friend for a long time and she wasn't like this till we had our falling out, so I guess I'll take the blame for it. Well, I'm off and hopefully I can cheer myself up after all this...

Edward
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(no subject) [Sep. 23rd, 2004|08:58 am]
homicidaledward
[mood |optimisticoptimistic]
[music |(movie) Young Frankanstein]

Hmm, I've had a very strange but pretty cool past few days... First off, Tuesday was ying and yang, I got to play an Airsoft game way out at 18 and Ryan in this rather large park in the middle of the night. I couldn't see shit more then 30 feet in front of me because of the moon light. I got shot up alot but I had alot of fun! My legs are still killing me... Now the yang part of the night, I went back to Darcys house with Derick (he's her room mate and also one of the guys I play airsoft with! lol) and had sex with Darcy, it wasn't that great there for I think I'm totally done with her, I don't enjoy talking to her on the phone or having sex with her because I can't have her the way I want... So I'm done, totally. (I now see why Rachel went back and forth with Steve so many times) Now tonight was cool! I went up to Royel Oak around 10 or so and saw a bunch of friends up there, that was awesome, stayed till like 1 then went over to this girls house (can't remember her name) shes a friend of my friend Katie, then we watched anime all evening. This girl isn't attractive to me mentally and I'd never date or even sleep with her but we kinda snuggled all even which was outstanding, mostly because thats all I've been wanting latly and I guess I kinda got that out. :-) So yeah, that was cool, I also watched some Anime with woman in short skirts and lots and lots of girls with pantie shots! lol It was fuckin' awesome, I got to see Anime woman with weapons I could name as I watched. It was sweet... Thats about it latly, that and I'm short on cash alot... Oh yeah, and Jessie seems to still be MIA (Missing In Action for those whom don't know) for 8 days now... Ahh well, bed/movie time...

Edward
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Cational Noney Iz-land [Sep. 20th, 2004|07:55 am]
homicidaledward
Nothing new latly, no ones been on latly, life has been boring... Oh well... Never got to go to City or play airsoft, Derick canceled on us and I didn't have the money to go to City. From what I've heard, Jessies up north, Vanessas been busy the past few days (besides this evening, wish I would have known that I would have joined her) and every time I get ahold of Rachel either shes at work or I end up waking her up! lol I'm suppost to hang out with Mark later today, hopefully jam out a bit, it's been forever since I've jammed out with anyone! I've been playin' bass alot more latly, writtin' some new stuff. So yeah, I hope he doesn't think I'm tryin' to steal him from that band he's in... Also, looks like there other guitarest didn't leave for Florida like they thought he would. Anyways, if I don't hang out with him I think I'm gonna get ahold of Angel, see if she wants to do anything, we keep talking about hanging out but we never do! Shes fun to hang out with, shes just as broke as I and doesn't mind sitting around all day watching movies. Well it's late in the day for me and early in the morning for everyone else... So I think I'm off to go watch some more movies and seach for things to learn about on the net...

Edward

My beard is almost back! Fuck yeah!
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"It's been killing ever since... Just like pootie tang" [Sep. 17th, 2004|08:41 pm]
homicidaledward
So yeah, the past few days have been boring, I havn't really been talking to all that many people, mostly hangin' out with Mark and talkin' to Sara online... I talked to Darcy online a little today, it had been 4 days. Not bad for me. I havn't seen Jessie online at all the past two days, thats alittle odd, I hope all is well with her. I havn't talked to Vanessa either, I really should give her a call I miss her. I'm thinkin' about seein' if she minds if I tag along for City Club yet again tomorrow, but it all depends on weather or not I can get my hands on some money, which will hopefully be tomorrow!
I talked to Darcys room mate Derick today, he's also a friend of mine, he and a bunch of his friends play airsoft using spring and low end electric guns which is what me and my friends use, so hopefully there playin' tomorrow and I'll either be goin' to City or out to play airsoft. Well, I gotta go get ready for work.

Edward
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Wow, I forgot I had a chin... [Sep. 16th, 2004|09:18 pm]
homicidaledward
hehe I shaved off my go-tee today... Wow, it looks so weird, I was scared I would look younger, but I don't, I just noticed how fat my face had gotten, I gotta work on that! lol Either way I needed to shave my go-tee, I was lookin' bad and I'll be growing it back as soon as possable! Besides that, things have been going okay I guess, I haven't talked to Darcy in 3 days, well, I did for like 5 minutes about 3 days ago, but that doesn't really count! lol I guess my life is begining to setting down again, as are my emotions. I find myself wanting to work more and just simply do more with my time, though I still find lots of time to be bored. Arg, speaking of I gotta leave for work soon... Damn midnights, I'm sick of that shift, I really need a new job. I guess it's time to get off my ass and find one. Thats it for now...

Edward
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mmmm ahahahahah! [Sep. 15th, 2004|08:21 pm]
homicidaledward
Take the quiz: "Which God or Goddess are you?"

God of Beautiful Death
Elegant, regal, and beautiful. You accept death for what it is, and unavoidable part of life. You often feel higher than others, more mature or sane, and tend to wear dresses and skirts if your a girl, or collared shirts if you're a boy. You bring those who have died a peaceful death to their resting place.
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I am lord and master! [Sep. 15th, 2004|08:14 pm]
homicidaledward
Take the quiz: "What vampire are you"

You are the king of vampiers
You are wise and are a pure vampire if you werent then you wouldnt have been king! anyway everyone loves you partly because you'll tear there heads of and hang it in your library if they dont and the other part is because though you are lazy physically noting escapes you sight and you rule!! what more do u want?!
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